Wedding Crasher
11/10/2020
I feel the chronic pain leaving my body, my heart and mind feel like a huge bolder one depression has lifted. I feel happy. With out resorting to Klonopin. I’m still waiting my “moment stuck in time” to pass but I can type this out, we’re doing ok. Tears are staying put. The twinge of sadness still here. PTSD in real time review. I can breathe, I can inhale deeper with out chest pain. I can close my eyes and exhale some anxiety out. I can fill my chest cavity full of air and hold it, 9 seconds. I know where I am. I can exhale until my lungs are completely empty. I can breathe. My dog is here. I am here. The pain is real, the sadness is real. But you are here too. Grandparents should be able to live on forever right? She died in 2019. She was a nurse. No Klonopin needed.