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man this shit is insane. smoked a little bit with my dealer when picking it up, was fire. everything felt surreal, i felt like everything was drastically more funny. the day after, i decided to go out and smoke one of my rolls (about 0.5g...) and it was insane. first few hits were okay, decided to start walking. i quickly felt very heavy and had to sit down again. i decided to just breathe, relax and go with it. after i had smoked around half of my zoot, i started getting in a loop of my thoughts. i started to think about why society provides things like entertainment, how we all have people in our lives doing their own thing right now. i called a friend, and, he showed me some of the funniest videos i’ve ever seen. genuinely, anything is funny on this shit. anyway, i smoked it down to the roach and everything just started getting more and more distorted... music was playing in my head, it was insane. it wasn’t even music that had been heard before; it was completely new music. all of a sudden, i started delving into the philosophy thought train again. it was a lot different this time. everything was personified, everything that was teaching me something was a character in some way, shape or form. the grass started to look like still images on top of dirt, the holes in the tree started to form faces (please keep in mind that i didn’t PHYSICALLY see this, but rather thought about it so hard that i believed it was there). i couldn’t feel my legs, but managed to uncross them. as soon as i uncrossed my legs, a sense of dread suddenly striked me. i had never experienced anything like this before, but i took deep breaths to stay calm. i walked home safely, got to my room and flopped myself into my chair. struggled to put on some music, and just sat there. heart racing at 180BPM. i felt physical force shower over me repeatedly; it was pleasant yet terrifying. i tried to cool down but whatever i tried to do didn’t work. i was starting to get very uncomfortable; this was probably the worst part of the experience. i tried thinking of ways to make myself come down (i’d rather be completely sober than like this) but i realised that i just had to ride the wave 😎. i started having more visions in my mind that were telling me to throw up, which was really weird. as far as i remember, i didn’t physically feel sick like that. i was so overwhelmed with this feeling of powerlessness, i got up and walked to the bathroom and threw up. always not been a fan of throwing up; but it’s honestly not bad at all when you’re this high. i was on the toilet bowl for an hour (this doesn’t sound fun, but again, it was honestly great i was jus chillin lol) before i got up and went back into my room. my mum bought me mcdonald’s, i loved it. played some games that night and went to bed. i didn’t manage to get loads of sleep, i kept waking up and every time a new story would play. i was lucid dreaming, trying to answer complex things... i am now writing this the morning after, and i still have to give it a 10/10, as it absolutely managed to show me my powerlessness in this universe (this is really the experience i am looking for from drugs). i woke up super early today, which is weird. my head and body still feel high, very relaxed. i’m very hungry, and i was extremely thirsty when i woke up. a psychedelic experience, i have to say.